Tuesday, May 8, 2018

I'm Still Standing

I've read a lot of cancer blogs over the years, and it's always an issue of concern to me when a blog stops abruptly. Because you wonder...you know what you wonder.

I don't know if anyone ever stumbles upon this blog. But in case it comes up when somebody is searching about their own cancer, or a loved one's ocular melanoma, I don't want them to find a big nothing at the end and think the worst.

It's been 5 1/2 years. I'm still standing. I still have visual symptoms and my vision in my right eye is lousy. But I'm here. The reason I haven't written is...life. (And, if we're going to be honest, Candy Crush.)

Since I've last written, I've had a kid graduate high school and complete a year of college. My husband and I celebrated our 20 year anniversary. I turned fifty. I've gotten two great-nephews and a great-niece. And yes, I've lost a couple of family members, one to cancer.

In my last post, I probably sounded a little bitter. That's because the husband of one of my best friends died too young suddenly a few days after the start of the year. The memory of that is still painful (much more so for my friend), but in the intervening three-plus years she met a different,  equally wonderful man and married him. In other words: searing loss happens and we are never the same, but we can be happy again.

If you've found this little blog because we have that cancer thing in common, I'm so sorry. But know that there is cause for hope, and although it may seem hard to believe now, cause for joy.